Life can change in an instant.
They weren't lying were they? Today as in yesterday, I was just doing my thing. And bam, I step on a sticker. Just goes to show, how quickly I can go from being happy to sad in like 2.3 seconds. It hurt, and I wanted to cry. Apparently someone drug in a sticker from the wilderness, and I stepped on it. I can't go barefoot in my own house? The world just isn't safe anymore. Just like you can be painting your house one second, and the next thing you know, someone's (I'm gonna call him Jiggs.) running through your backyard screaming religious passages at your daughter and pushing down your wife. And before you know it, you're performing a scene straight from a soap opera, and punching him down the stairs. Cause life's just so grand ya know?
My dad called me today, right smack dab in the middle of my nap. I can't believe I got through a whole conversation without forming a sentence. And we talked for at least 20 minutes. I can't even remember about what. Dave Koltunski was mentioned. Which happens to be one of my favorite people alive. He's such a hopeless romantic. Let me tell you a little about Dave.
I've known Dave my whole life. One of the greatest guys you'll ever meet. Nice, genuine, and you never leave his presence without hearing some great story about his past. My dad and Dave met, at some party in the late 60's early 70's, and were instant friends. Sometimes, I wonder how they were ever friends to begin with, because Dave is my dad's complete opposite. Where Dave succeeds, my dad fails. But I've come to realize, that my dad, was everyone's wild friend. Everyone has one, my dad just fits the mold. Okay so back to Dave.
You can't mention Dave without mentioning Luanne. Luanne was a friend of one of my dad's friends, that was in from Maine. Dave and Luanne hit it off. And Dave fell hard. I swear, they're kindred souls. Soulmates. If you ever watch them, you always wonder how they ever ended up apart. It's really one of those sad stories, where you wish Dave had been more open with Luanne about how he felt for her. When Luanne fell for Darryl, Dave swore he'd never be with another woman. Luanne was the only woman for him, and she was taken. To this day, he's never married, and to my knowledge, never dated. And it's been well over thirty years. He's lived alone, surrounded by friends. It's not that he's been miserable. I just wish he's been able to share his life with someone, because he's such a great person. So brilliant and smart. He deserves to be loved, like he's loved us all through the years. I've always wondered what instant changed their lives.
Dave is still friends with Darryl and Luanne, who are still married. He could have easily written them off. But would rather have her in his life as a friend, then not have her at all. Her being happy is all that matters to him, and well, I think that says something about who he is.
Now I want to go visit Dave. I haven't seen him in forever. When my parents divorced, I didn't see him much. My mother, thought my dad's friends were angry with her. But, turns out that was far from the truth. They understood my father completely. And knew he brought it all upon himself. I love that he still has them though. That even though he fucked up royally, they still accept him. Or at least hide it really well.
So anyway, there's a bit about my past...well kind of. Night, well, morning!
I've had this blog open for almost 4 hours now, and I'm struggling with what to say. Several days ago, something was brought to my attention, that really brought my world to a screeching halt. It's nothing bad, really it's far from it, but it's just one of those things that really makes you think about what you're doing with your life, and are you really going anywhere. So I've kind of been contemplating my life and my choices, and what I want to do with all this craziness. I do know, that I must move on. And wherever that takes me, I shall be there. Until then, bare with me.
