There is so much More.

He who has the courage to laugh is almost as much a master of the world as he who is ready to die." - Giacomo Leopardi

So...today has been amazing. Amazing because I've done what I want, when I want. I had lunch with my mother, and Jami made me dinner after a late night trip to the hell that is Walmart. She made fun of me when I purchased Soap Digest, because that's what friends do. I've actually made time for reading two days in a row, and might just read before I go to bed too. Having a random Saturday off is always fun, so I can't complain. Today has been full of laughs, and a day of laughs is simply heaven.

Other than that, I haven't really been up to much. Worrying about the upcoming holiday, and if I shall survive are my only thoughts. Kind of scary that things seem to change over time. Maybe I was just to blind to see the mess we've created, or maybe I'm just naive. Or maybe I just don't care that much. With more people around this year, maybe we'll be on our best behavior. Or maybe I should bring some Grey Goose for a house warming gift, ha ha.

I was brought down memory lane today. Myspace does that to you. My first job. I've met so many people because of that theater. Some real cool people at that. It was really my first escape. Because by the time I got that job, my mother was in her second marriage with a man, we won't speak of. He was such an ass, and well I was more than happy to work and be away from it all. Soon work became more than just work, it became a sanctuary of family. We all became fairly close, and we watched out for each other. I wouldn't trade those memories or friendships for anything. And I really miss them. They were very much a part of me, and when I left, it was tough. I cried. Our family was breaking up, moving away. I don't regret my choices. But sometimes, when I get to thinking about things, I miss them. And for a brief second, I wish we were all back together, being our crazy selves. But then I realize, that to become the people we were meant to be, we must move on, and touch others. Every now and then, I share a smile for the people that I miss, and love. As painful as it is, we must move on...

So yes. I am thankful for my choices. There is a reason my life has been on the path it's been on. Whatever it shall be....